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stevenyayo
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Interests: Computers-(Geek)
Books-The picture of dorian gray, The Divine Comedy( Dante's Inferno), Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code.
Movies-Underworld, Sin city, anything directed by Quentin Tarantino, Constantine, Starwar I, The Thomas Crown Affair just to name a few. Music(-EMO-i think that speaks for it's self) Taking Back sunday, The Early November, The killerz, Modest Mouse, HIM, Nirvana, Green Day, Steven Lynch, Cake, Breaking Benjermin....ect
Expertise: Computer for the most part, i'm a geek, and i play way to may video games for my own good but o well.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Computers (Software)
Message: message me
Member Since:
10/9/2003
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| have you had your hate today?
dinner table conversation is a old family past time, it's a time where
everyone in the family can come together and share there day with each
other, to built one another up in confadence just to send them back out
into the world to face another day. (not finshed) (don't comment yet)
steven
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| forgive me father for I have sinned.....
as teeming with knowledge as
human beings are, there is one thing that science, math and man, can't
prove, that would be God. does it exists, is it all knowing, does it
even care. but I'm not here to talk about rather it exist or
not, I'm merely here to comment about the things that take place in
Gods
name.war's, racism, slavery, murder... are the surface of things that
are carryed out in the name of God . that is not to say that good
things have not been done in the name of God, happiness, love, helping
of those in need, blessings. There are many religions in the world and
yet they all samise that they hold the truth about God and the world in
which we live in. but if you break down most religions you get the same
basic concepts, obey the laws ( set by the religion) and thank your God
for everything. many religions have been undermined and overthrown by
other religious belifes, the one that wins is the won that is more
adapted at the time and can cator to the masses needs more. religion is
a good thing, but in some people they get so overwhelmed in there
belief that they forget that the world doesn't always see eye to eye
with the things they may believe, some people become arrogant and
overbearing, pushing there beliefs on people who they feel need to be
changed, even if there a good person or not. it just doesn't make since
how so many people believe in almost the same concept but yet stand so
divided. interpretation is the truth, no one knows what the true story
of religion is, it's chaggned over thousands. well you put your life on
the line for an inturatation, walking blindly behind another who walks
just as blindly as you are, or do you find the truth for your self, but
I guess to some ignorance is truly bliss..
*yawns* late night
steven
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| you may not be able to buy love, but happiness is just 25ΓΈ away-
Does everyone feel emotions the same way. can you compare my extent of
joy to that of another person? lets take that question from the
perspective of a 5 year old child. this child stands in front of a candy
machine and starts to imagine just how good it would taste to have a
piece of candy that waits just so taunting on the other side of the
glass. now, imagine if you well your self standing in front of something
that you know would make your life just that much better even for a
moment, but this thing (whatever it maybe) lay on the other side of the
glass. now at that same moment that you and this child stand hoping to
get the thing that would make there life just that much sweeter ( no
pun intended) at the same time your desire and this child's desire is
given to you both, now tell me can you measure at that exact moment the
level of joy/happiness there feeling. tell me can you make any formula
or equation that can measure an emotion, which brings me to my last
point. if you can't measure something as small as happiness, how can
you even think you can measure something as big as the love a person has for another.....
* coughs* *sighs*
goodnight
steven
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| sleeplesss in seattle-
most people would think that i'm using that statement as a form of some
profound discovery that i can't seem to complet a cicle of slumber,
well in a way thats true, i can't seem to get sleep and inturn i stay
up late at night while the rest of my house hold cudles there pillows,
and i surf the net looking for the things to lose my in. well when i
say this statement i mean it in the contents as that i can't seem to
lose my self in a state unconsciousness with the wolrd or
the problems that i face. i've been taking care of a 30 year old woman
who can't do things on her own, ( my step sister is a paranoid
schizophrenic.) Her words resound like bombs in my mind as
she screams at me over and over again. the stress of it all is enough
to make a person mad, ( crazy) insted i use it to stablize my self. to
realize that there is better thing after this. my sleep will one day
come, as for the moment i'm still ..... sleepless in seatlle.
night
steven
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| life anew-
well i started over again, what more can i say. an old place with new
faces, and a bigger plain waiting for my at the other side of what
seems to be one of the hardest years i'm gonna ever have. more is new
with me then is old, my hairs longer, my voice deeper and it's getting
harder ever day to find things to get out of bed for. but i do every
morning, i get up and i go to work. i feel as tho i've been sucked into
the worlds rat race you could say, like i just jumped head first into a
wall that i know at some point i'm going to have to climb over to get
to the things i want in life. i haven't had much time for people lately
or should i say much passesnce, sometimes you get sick of being
someones door mat, ( which they walk all over) sunday newspaper( which
they tose aside after there finshed with it) or garbage ( which they
disgaurd as tho your feelings are that expendable) so i sit here late
at night and type away, everyday knowing i get closer and closer to
that which i dream for. mind you i have a good life as is, i know that
envy is one of my biggest vise, and i envy people for the things they
have or the things they do, but we all do that as humans, so i don't
feel so bad. but until the day that my friends lay me down and
place coins over my eyes to pass safely to the other side, is the day
that i will stop striving to better my self and the things i want. i
know that was a little morbid but it's a perfect mettaphor for what i
have to say next , you can't take anything with you when you die, your
money, your cloths, your cars or your house.... so have fun with your
life, it's to short not to.
meh i'm tiered * slumps onto bed*
good morning
steven
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